Stream of Consciousness

*part way through writing this I realized I was just typing whatever came into my head, whenever it came in. I decided to just go with it and this is the result. Yes, it is fairly pointless. I just needed something different than the notice of the giveaway at the top of my blog.

I've been feeling self-sufficient recently. Sort of. Until I think about it. I guess you could say it's true because I did quit my job and I have been doing things to get us prepared for bad stuff, but when I think about having quit my job it doesn't seem like a self-sufficient thing. I still need clients to pay me if I'm going to be self-sufficient. But when I think about the garden I am both planting and in the process of expanding I feel like I'm doing what I can to take care of me and my family. I just wish it required less weeding. Truth be told, I actually enjoy weeding. I get a lot of satisfaction from getting the roots of a dandelion completely out of the ground my fruits and veggies are supposed to occupy. Morning glory is a different story. I just keep getting the shoots. One of them I pulled out today had a shoot that was probably about four feet long if you straighten it out. And it still snapped off. The garden looks really pretty with all the green, but very little of it is stuff we can eat. I haven't figured out yet why only half of my peas came up and the entire egg crate I tried to get seedlings out of seems to have given up. Maybe when I plant the squash and zucchini they will grow as well as the weeds. I've never grown them myself, but everyone I know who has gets an overabundance. Lots of zucchini bread. I need to make the banana bread tonight before they go bad. I also need to make the baby's next food and cook dinner. I don't know what we're going to have, but at least we're going to the store. Hopefully I'll be inspired there. I love going to the store and taking the baby so I can use her cute shopping cart cover. I love that thing. I've been doing sewing for everyone else to the point that I haven't started my projects yet. I want to make sun hats for Ellie because it's much cheaper that way than buying them at the store. I'll have to raid my mom's fabric stash and see what she has. Still, it's better to have a lot of customers and not a lot of time to sew my own projects. Then I can be self-sufficient and not have to use credit, borrow from parents, or take out loans to pay for living. Huh, I came right back to where I was.